I decided to like myself three weeks ago and these are the changes I’ve seen so far I can’t remember when or where I saw it but there was a video that really messed me up these past few years this woman talked about how when she was a teenager she thought she was too fat and then at age 21 she spent all her time wishing she had the body she had at 16 and then at age 25 all she did was obsessed over how she could get her body to look how it did when she was and at the age of 30 she was like yeah I can’t keep doing this the video has stuck with me and three weeks ago I finally decided yeah I can’t keep hating myself I have literally never liked my body I have a vivid memory of a girl in college telling me oh you have a perfect body and I was legitimately confused because to me I thought I was extremely overweight because of things that people in my family were telling me and recently I have seen pictures of what my body looked like then and I am in shock because how in the world was I thinking that about the body I had that so in the past three weeks I’ve actually spent a lot of time just standing and staring at myself in the mirror I don’t suck my tummy and I don’t strain to pose my body in ways that make me feel or appear slimmer I just stand there and I really look at my body I’ve seen a lot of time just touching my skin holding my tummy and just saying nice to myself not liking myself just sounds kind of dumb we’ve been there done that and it was terrible I gotta be honest at the end of the day I’m still extremely heartbroken over all the years I’ve lost to hating myself the behavior that was modeled to young me was hate yourself that’ll motivate you to get better that is a lie liking yourself can take a lot of hard work but what I’m seeing so far it feels definitively better this is just a glimpse into the last three weeks so let me know if you wanna know more about what these last three weeks have been like