Exploring Gender Expression and Self-Validation Through Haircut: A Reflective Journey

Hey guys, when I go out with my friends who are all like, at least when we go out, they’re very like Femmy present. Okay? I can’t explain to you the amount of times that they are basically at a bouncer’s throat being like, that is a girl. And obviously when it’s happening, I’m not like, I’m like kind of laughing cuz like, what can you do? It’s kind of like embarrassing, but also like it’s just so funny because I dress no different than how I dress when I had long hair. But now it’s just like, because I have short hair, it’s like, oh, that’s not really a girly anymore. And it’s funny because I feel the same way. I always felt like a fraud in that sense, even when I had long hair with my friends, cuz I always felt like I was just like, oh, I’m just not like as like Femmy as these people. Like the feelings are still the same. It’s just like magnified. And also like just confirm that’s the way that people like look at you. And I just think that like, obviously it’s not like the nicest experience, but it’s also just a really like freeing experience in the sense that like just learning not to like center men and men’s validation and men’s like understanding and perception of like what womanhood and like women are can really free you because I really much like identify as like a woman. Like I love the experience of being a woman. And it’s so weird to say, but like these small things that you benefit from, like male validation or like being able to get into a club for free or getting drinks for free and blah, blah, blah. Like these things that like now it’s like people are like, but are you really like blah blah or like, I am a girl, but it’s like, oh, you’re not the type of girl that like, we wanna give these things to for free. It’s like, okay, just thinking about that. Obviously you can feel bad about it yourself cuz you’re like, oh, like, I just don’t have to say worth that I did. But it’s like I feel more myself than I’ve ever felt in my life. Like I feel like I look at myself and I’m like, oh, this is Tosh. And like even my friends, they like look at me and they’re like, I can’t even imagine you with like long hair anymore. And I’m like, yeah, because I was actually just so uncomfortable. It’s like obviously not a very like comfortable experience to be like people like questioning you and like, it’s embarrassing. Like honestly, and more than anything, it’s just embarrassment, but it’s also just like being able to understand that like, it doesn’t really matter. I don’t know. I think that if you wanna see a TD, I’ll show you a TD.