So I just finished making a video showing my loose skin actually is in 600 pounds and then having like a little breakdown crime session. And I thought I would hop on here and do another video real quick. This one I just want to talk to those of you who r like I was, morbidly obese, felt alone, scared, hopeless.
If those describe you or your situation, this is for you, okay? I want you to know that it doesn’t matter where you’re at in your journey, whether you even haven’t, you haven’t started yet, that you are not alone. And I know that it may seem that you are.
For years, I felt so alone. And I had family, but no one understood me. And I looked online, but I couldn’t find anyone that I could identify with, which is why when I started my journey, I decided that I was going to tell my story, the good, the bad and ugly, and try and help with many people as I can. Because it’s hard when you are 6,7,800 pounds and you don’t see anyone online that you can identify with. I want you to know that there are programs that all of that, that can help now. You don’t have to go through this and be alone. I came on here today fresh out the shower, no makeup on, no hair done, nothing, cuz I wanted to be raw and real with you. You do not have to continue to live moment about moment, scared and afraid like I was. I set my alarm on my phone for every hour at night because I was so afraid that I was going to pass in my sleep because I was not breathing right. That I set my alarm for every hour so that it would wake me up and I would know that I was still here. I did that for years. I know they’re, what I’m saying is reaching someone because I know that there are people that go through that. And I want you to know, it doesn’t make you weird. It doesn’t make you, you know, like, there’s no one like me. There’s nobody out there like me. Why am I this way? I did those things. I ordered, you know, the pizza to band John and then cut the pizza boxes into tiny little pieces so that I could hide them in the trash can and nobody would know I’ve done those things. I’ve hidden the food and I’ve, I could go through so much, but I want you to know that those are not things to be ashamed of. That is why it is called a food addiction or it is called an eating disorder, because those things are difficult to overcome by yourself. You don’t have to do it by yourself.
There are options, especially now. There are so many options. Like I recently became an ambassador for pop, which is patients over prophets. It’s like an all in one Berry actually to plastics to overall this wellness program where you have a team that works with you, like you have your nutritionist, you have your surgeon, you have your mental health coach, you have everything for you. So if you don’t have a support system at home with friends and family, that doesn’t need to stop you because you can have a support system other ways. Now you can have me Asia support system.
Okay, I’m only a click away. Maintain me some time to get to your message. So don’t get discouraged. But I do try to answer everybody that messages me because I want people to know that you do not live the way that I lived 40 years. And you are never too far gone. It is never too late. When I started my journey, I could not stand up for 30 seconds. I was on oxygen 24 hours a day. I almost died because I was in a coma pretty much for 3 days in the hospital because of carbon monoxide RD outside. I don’t know if someone on here will correct me. I wasn’t able to push out the bad air. I was poisoning myself. I had endometrial cancer that could not be treated because of massage. By all accounts, I should not be here. And I had several doctors tell me that I should not be here. But I am here. And I’m here because my life the rally at as difficult and painful as it was, I now know I live that. And I had to go through that so that I can help you. And I’m okay with that. Because of my pain can stop someone else from going through what I have been through, then I would live it at the end in a hearty. So don’t feel alone because you’re not. Okay. I love you and please know you’re not alone.