Reflections on Cocaine Addiction and Recovery: A Personal Journey

I’ve been in recovery, so,
like, most of the last 10 years.
How did you get addicted? How.
How did. No,
I would just do cocaine. That was really. Yeah.
So I’m not just. Yeah,
that’s. And it was down.
And that’s down and dirty, right?
Yeah. And this is. Yeah, this.
I mean, it was. Yeah.
But you don’t anymore? No,
I don’t do it anymore, man.
And I’m not doing it. Is it too much?
Too much to handle?
Some of the stuff started to get a real rattle in it, too.
I don’t know where it. We were even getting it from in this country,
but, yeah,
it started to make me feel like I was a mechanic or something.
So do you weigh up with cocaine?
More than anything else you can think of.
Cocaine will turn you into a damn owl, homie.
You know what I’m saying? It’ll.
You’ll be. You’ll be out on your own porch,
you know? Yeah,
you’ll. You’ll be your own street lamp.
You’re freaking. And is that a good feeling? While. No.
So it’s not even good during what would be normally the good time,
in other words. Oh, wow.
So why would you do it? I wouldn’t.
That’s why I don’t. Yeah,
that’s. That’s terrible.
But it’s crazy to. Because that’s what alcoholism is.
I think it’s that it trumps the why.
Yeah, it. Like.
It doesn’t. And it just.
You don’t, and you just go to.
It’s like, So that’s why it’s.
They say that it’s, um, cunning,
baffling and powerful. That’s what they say about alcoholism.